As an adult, most of my tears are tears of frustration. Frustration from being pushed into situations that I can't control.
Control... Yes I am a control freak and if I can't have it my way, I don't fight, I flee. That is ok with me.
Sure there were things that I fought for only to have them blow up in my face or to get them and realize it wasn't what I wanted at all. I listened to my heart too many times and my gut not enough.
Sometime in the last few years I found a balance in listening to my heart and gut at the same time and you know what.... They really communicate with each other.
I trust my instincts much more than I used to and I realized I am pretty good when drawing conclusions and realizing the true character of people.
I know an asshole when I see one and I mean like the true "you are an f-ing asshole".
I can tell when there is wrong about someone... Like they want to chain people up in their basement kind of wrong
Or when there is just something off. I can feel it, not just in my gut, but in my bones too.
Some may say I am being dramatic, but seriously I can tell a person's character within in minutes. I know the controlling, manipulative and evil people when I see them.